Saturday, January 16, 2010

Confessions of an insomniac

So I am wide awake at 5 am and I have no idea why. Well actually I do A)I drank a cup of coffee at midnight B)I slept through most of the middle of yesterday because my husband and kids and I all caught some hellish bug which caused us all to hurl and me to get hurled on TWICE!WOOO motherhood. So anyway now I am awake. I was all stoked to do laundry until the crack of dawn but it just didn't happen. Instead I have mostly been drooling over Etsy sellers I want to be like. There are so many people whose stuff is so amazing and it drives me insane because I feel like my level of awesome could be there too like it's bubbling under the surface but my lack of time or patience or focus or discipline is making it not happen. Ok and maybe because I don't have an art degree. Probably not that. Well anyway I am super ready for the genius idea to hit me. Of course I guess in theory I have come a long way since when I first started right! Ok so I am totally picturing myself standing in front of the big glass window like that dude in "Real Genius" waiting for the awesomeness to hit,except I don't want my house to fill up with popcorn. Although my kids do really love popcorn.

Oh also- The freaking Renegade craft fair is coming to Austin!!! wooo. My bff-who shall remain unnamed-randomly texted me about it and then I heard a choir sing and angels flew around me. I do not in any way feel I have anything to sell at a fair like that but I WANT TO SO BAD! Someday I suppose. business goals?

Sunday, January 10, 2010


So. Obviously The painting a day thing didn't pan out for several reasons. Mainly my last semester of school was crazy, also I have two kids so - well do I even need to go on.Right this second I am ignoring the child who is supposed to be asleep wandering around because - well because I am just not in the mood to pull some supernanny business right now.

After I stopped keeping up with the paintings and blogs I was trying to pretend I never blogged before. Then I watched Julie & Julia and who isn't inspired to blog after watching that movie. Then I thought about completely erasing all of my old entries or just starting a new blog all together. Instead I am just going to keep the old ones there to remind me not to make such lofty goals. My new years resolution was to blog once a week, and yea it's technically been more than a week since new years, but I think the biggest thing I want to learn this year is how to improve the aspects of my life that frustrate me without frustrating myself with impossible goals. I will not have an immaculate house. I will not lose 3 pounds a week, but I can do the dishes every day. I just want to spend this year finding that balance in everything so here we go- bring it on 2010